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Your Love Is My Drug, Ke$ha - ridiculous I know, lol.

I am giggling like a school girl and emitting sounds I didn't really know possible on a regular basis at this point. Every time I see D it just gets better and better. I relay my tales of the time we spend together to friends and they ask "Is there anything this guy DOESN'T do?" I smile my sly smile and say, "Not that I am aware of."

• He gives great massages, willingly.
• He cooks, and LIKES to cook. We work like a well-oiled machine in the kitchen, he does his thing, I do mine, not getting in each others way, but no words are spoken. It just gets done. Roomie and I operate this way as well, but it's taken 10 years to get there. And the end result is YUM-IE.
• He's handy around the house. Roomie has a long Honey-do list and he's helped with several things on it already. Without complaining about it, or making her or me feel inconvenienced.
• He's up for trying new things.
• He's attentive to my needs, he whipped out some socks the other day when he found my feet where cold (while going to massage them). Then he put them on for me.
• He snores like a mack truck, but has already slept in another room multiple times so I can sleep through the night. Plus he's looking into ways to make it stop with his doctor (took ex 9 years to do this and it never actually stopped.)
• He's great in bed and SUPER attentive to me. Won't stop til I come, which, is a great change and lovely.
• He's totally in charge of and owns his emotions - SUCH a change. He doesn't freak out if I bring something up out of the blue. Roomie asked me when we'd be moving in together, I laughed and laughed. Then realized she was serious. I said, that's not happening ANY time soon. When I relayed this story to D, he replied with "I wonder why she said that?" and proceed to tell me what he thought of it (hadn't even given it a thought) and asked what I thought too.
• He's a good listener without judging.
• He's a good dad and really cares about and for his son.
• He likes to dance and is a great singer, which I find adorable.

All in all, he makes me strive to be a better person, which is really, I think, the most you can hope for with someone. We are going to a concert for the 4th to see some fireworks. I am really looking forward to hanging with him and getting to know him even better.

Here's a Bo Derek shot that I wasn't aware Roomie took while we were in San Carlos. Happy HNT and be sure to stop by Osbasso to see who else is playing!

Letter to friends and family

Paralyzer "I'm not paralyzed but I seem to be struck by you"

6/22/10
"I wanted to let you know I met a really nice guy named D from my online dating profile and we've decided to date exclusively. Yes I know it's sudden, but I have done a lot of work to prepare a "List" of what I am looking for in a person. He fits every item on my list, and it's not a short list.  We've hung out quite a bit already and I haven't felt the awkwardness or anxiousness that I was dreading with the "dating" scene. We totally skipped right past that. It's fantastic and comfortable and he puts me at ease.

I don't think that I need to force myself to "experience dating" and all the ups and downs and anxiety, expense, loneliness and frustration (from what I've been told) that comes along with it. I think I have found someone that I am SUPER comfortable with, feel like I can be myself with and really enjoy being around and thus don't really feel like I need to put that aside just to say "I've dated."

He has been divorced for 9 years, he's 49 and has a 19 year old son. He gets what it means to be a parent and that I am not available when I have the kids. I don't plan to introduce them anytime soon. I'll see how things go with D and me first.

I wanted to keep you all posted on my happenin's. I am sure you'll be hearing more about D in the future. He's great and I really like him. Roomie has met him several times and agrees with me. She's also let him know that he's got "precious cargo" and needs to take care.

This Sunday while we were watching soccer I met a friend of his (who told D while I was in the bathroom, "she's a keeper, don't let her go")."


Until I acquire photos of our exciting evening and bedroom activities, I'll add another photo from San Carlos.
Happy HNT and be sure to stop by Osbasso to see who else is playing!

Half-Nekkid Thursday

I enjoyed my time in San Carlos and had some fun thinking of some half-nekid ideas. Here's the first I took of my view at the private beach we discovered. Enjoy!

Home again, home again

Is this love? This album seemed like the perfect beach music to me, so we enjoyed it in San Carlos.

Well, I have arrived safely home. My trip to San Carlos was a little slice of heaven. Beautiful blue, warm waters, perfect weather, great little studio apartment up on a hill so we could see the Bahia and all the beautiful boats. I think I may have over-used the word "gorgeous" this weekend. It was. I even ate some fish, first in a really long time (vegetarian) and DIDN'T have a reaction, always great. We had some beach time, some walking around time, Roomie was able to sell her lot down there, the reason we went, all in all a great trip. The buyer of her lot also said he wanted to buy her house here. Sigh, moving again when that's final next year... No complaints about the trip (except I am now tired from the "new bed" quasi-sleep) and I would definitely do it again in a heartbeat. Except for the part where roomie dropped my camera in the sand. Yeah. That part sucked. Now the shutter won't open. Grrrr. But she had at least brought hers so I need to get the remaining photos from her.

I leave you with a few parting shots.

An alternate view from our back porch overlooking the Bahia.

The "private" beach we discovered after running into a "local" with his shirt off.

I dubbed him Daniel because he reminded me of Daniel from Lost.

The hill we had to climb to get to home from the private beach. We orginally tried to come down this in the car and there were 2 cement trucks blocking our way. So roomie decided to turn around. Well as you can see, the streets are narrow and cobblestone. It pretty much scared the crap out of us as her tires spun and the car shimmied around. Luckily she was able to get enough traction to move, and not over the huge cliff to the right. We decided to park the car back at our rental and walk. First DOWN this hill. Then back up it to go home.

The bottle of wine I DIDN'T drink.

Me enjoying my pedicure. This was just before I got my first bikini wax. I asked for a full brazilian, somehow that got lost in translation. Ah well. It didn't hurt anywhere near as much as I expected, which of course is great. That's all for now. Nite nite.

Paradise

Kenny Chesney Beer In Mexico

I mentioned I was going to San Carlos right? It's beautiful. This song is the pefect backdrop for my vacation with Roomie. We're having a blast and it's paradise. This is the view from my porch. More later!

Alone, lonely

I am feeling alone, and lonely tonight. I have been checking my secret stash to no avail. There have been no presents left for me. It's disapointing to get all worked up over it (meanwhile in the back of my mind saying, there's nothing, he didn't say ANYTHING), then, nothing. The restrictions on the communication drive me BATTY. I really enjoy the back and forth banter, the playfulness, the teasing. But that's not an option right now, and it makes me so, so sad.

I am at my horny point of the month, so needless to say it's a little more disapointing than usual. And I am a little more wet than usual (though honestly it's hard to top the constant wetness that is "me") and longing for some kissing more than usual. Sigh. I am imagining one short month away at this point. It's a self imposed restriction. I could likely create an online profile now and start dating. But, I don't feel like I should. I feel like I should wait until I am officially divorced. I need the papers. I need permission. I need to take my ring off the day of the court date. Which btw, has to wait to be scheduled until we've both taken our parenting class (next week).
I am looking forward to my San Carlos trip over Memorial Day weekend. We looked at places to rent tonight. Hopefully we'll find a great steal and have a lovely time. I could use some beach time.

Til then, I'll keep looking, and hoping, and waiting and knowing that I care.

*sigh*

Your Love, your love

I have to admit I like this song. She's a HORRIBLE singer, but the tune manages to plant itself in my brain and won't get out, (wait, that's a place a cat can go) won't leave. It's ridiculous.

So roomie went out with a guy tonight so I ran by myself. 6 miles to the closest casino, then worked out. How else am I going to get to one of the bodies below? This is a collection of photos that inspire me that I made my desktop.

Yum and a bunch more of yum. Good inspiration for the up coming trip we're planning to San Carlos over Memorial Day weekend. Whohoo!!

I filed for the default today. Now I can call tomorrow and actually get my court date. Lookin' at June 8th to be divorced. How's that work for ya'll? Everyone free? I was reading the Ethical Slut V2 at lunch today and while I was waiting for my turn. I've changed my quote under Night Moves to more accurately reflect the mood.

So I LOVE reading Dooce and you should check out her post from today. Hi Lair E Us. I love her humor. She made working out funny. I aspire to that. She's my lunch time guilty pleasure along with MLIA. Some of them are totally made up, but you can skip past to the ones that make you laugh.

I was supposed to meet a coworker for coffee today (casual, no biggie) and I totally got the skeeves about it so I bailed. It was ODD. He's married, he knows I am married (and getting divorced), he's made comments about how attractive he thinks I am but the feeling is not reciprocal nor have I ever indicated it was. In fact he reminds me SO much of C, but times 10. And I have told him that, and he keeps coming back for more. So I need to keep it to IMing and I will likely have to tame that down. I have to admit I like the attention though. Bad me.

Also, I finally was able to apologize to B for a comment I made over a year ago. We haven't spoken since then, at his request. I tried reconnecting with him recently, no response. He actually needed something from me today that was work related so he ASKED SOMEONE ELSE TO ASK ME FOR IT. It was ridiculous. So I sent him a note saying that I wished he had just asked me himself and that I thought it was sad our former friendship had dissolved to this. I said I wish you the best in your future. Then I felt like I hadn't said enough, so I sent one more email saying, "I sincerely apologize for anything I might have said that offended you, that was never the intent." What else are you supposed to do when you tell a guy you're not interested in him sexually but you enjoy his friendship? Sheesh, I lost a good friend over that (or apparently not). As J said, "B is an idiot." But, I apologized today, and now I am going to move away with a clear conscious.

So, I am back onto Lost. I checked into ABC last night and realized that ALL the episodes are posted, YAY so I was able to go back as far as I had missed. So, I am going to check out one more tonight before I call it quits. Enjoy Ke$ha. I am on listen #10 or so at this point. Lol (rolling eyes).