The Office

Must be doin' somethin right. Watch at 2:48, that's us when we're snuggling at night.

Once upon a time, there was a man and a woman. They loved being with each other, were totally comfortable trying new things and stretching their boundaries. One night she mentioned a fantasy she'd always had about the office. He was intrigued. He said they should try it.

So they did.

I had to go into work a few weekends back because we've got a lot of events happening right now. My boss has been traveling a lot too and that tends to make my work load back up until I can get some face time. To combat this in between trips I sometimes work after hours.

It was Sunday and we had gone for a run when my boss called me to send him an email, that I had already sent. It was almost 8 by the time I got into work, "real quick" and that turned into 3 hours. Poor D fell asleep on the ground. I felt really bad. So when I was done (at 11 pm), I climbed  on top of him to wake him up. That led back to my cubicle, that lead to his pants coming off. And my top coming off, then all our clothes were off. My fantasy was running through our minds, we discussed it and enjoyed as much of it as we could, being only the 2 of us. I layed down on my desk and took him into my throat with my head hanging off the desk. He loves it when I do that with him. He sends me photos and tells me how hot it is when he thinks of us doing it. I was able to get a nice rhythm going and figure out my breathing in conjunction with his thrusts. Yum.
We had watched a bit of porn the night before when a guy had spun a girl around by her neck and I'd told him I thought it was hot. He did that with me on the desk and we both smiled. Was in the perfect position to hold my legs up together while he held my thighs and pounded his hard cock into me. He had one of his famous "bear orgasms" and then had a lovely time enjoying himself in between my legs. I assisted and eventually had a fantastic orgasm, all spurred on my the public nature of the occasion.  I loved that he was game for it and didn't tease about it, then not follow through.

I can cross that one off the bucket list now. Not to say it won't ever happen again. Today he txt'd me and told me how horny he was since we hadn't seen each other in 2 days. He said we should try the stairwell I'd shown him next time.

Lovin' that. : )

My HNT photo for the week reminds me of this song. Spent most of the weekend at his place and he took this picture yesterday morning before I woke up. I had no idea he'd taken it. He likes it when I wear his clothes to bed, then they smell like me after I leave. We've been doing some running together which is great. Gotta keep those legs in shape! Be sure to check in with Os to see who else is playing on HNT.

I run to you

I've had this song on my mind awhile. It's a great song.

Well I have cheered up markedly in the last week which is great. Last weekend was Labor Day and I spent it all with D. We drove up a local mountain to get some heat relief and found a lovely little camp site to hang out at for awhile. We'd brought some fruit and wine and cheese and crackers and smore's makin's. It had been a LOOOONG time since either of us had smores. YUM!! Can't recommend it enough. I had mentioned earlier in the day that there were vegetarian marshmallows and he relayed later that he went to 4 (yes FOUR) different grocery stores looking for them. Apparently the guy at the last one asked how many stores, to which D replied 4 and the guy said, "wow, you must really like her." (insert goofy grin here)
: )

We hung there for awhile, enjoyed some wine, which lead to some nekkid time, which was fun and risky with people clearly in eye sight of where we were. That of course added to the excitement. Watched some stars when we were done. Had a long conversation about our open relationship. We're both still comfortable with it, which is great. Headed down the hill a few hours later to go home. Enjoyed some more of each other which completely exhausted us and we crashed. Woke up, enjoyed an entire day of hanging at the house watching movies. Crazy Heart (eh), Gamer (bad, he actually fell asleep), some porn (lead to some nice action) and finally Backup Plan (better than expected actually). Made corn bread pot pie in the crock pot so it was ready for dinner, YUM. More smores, then more enjoying, then bed.

Woke up Monday, back to my house for supplies, hung out at his neighbor's pool awhile, eventually went to meet his parents where we had dessert. I had met them briefly once before at a jewelry party so it wasn't awkward. And in fact it was nice. They are very proper people, he's ex military and she's a true southern lady. It's all very different than how I grew up. But a nice change. Then we did the local run in the evening and headed back to his place again. It was all very "mundane" and "normal." And nice. Comfortable. Effortless. Somewhere in there I became his babygirl. He mentioned it in a txt at one point later and I said I really liked it. He said, "that's what I think when you're tucked into my arms and I am kissing you good night."

Insert next goofy grin here : )

I was IMing with C from my online dating site last week and he let me know that he's finally ready to meet me. I was super excited but bummed that I had made myself unavailable all weekend with plans with D. But, it's the next week, and guess what, C still hasn't set plans to meet me. Ah well. Certainly not going to push that one.

And Friday it was like old flames day or something, I had 2 people who had been in touch with me previously that I hadn't heard from since my KC trip get in touch with me. One asked if I needed someone to take pics for my blog, no strings attached. I politely declined (he turned out to be kind of a jerk and I wasn't interested in getting back into that drama) and he then proceeded to tell me he was engaged. Sheesh, good thing I'd said no. CERTAINLY don't need that drama. And the other guy was ALL about meeting me ASAP!! Made tentative plans for lunch today. Txt'd him this morning. No response. Again, ah well.

Roomie is going out of town this weekend and D and I are headed to the football game. Should be lots of fun, and he'll come here after, which will be a nice change from packing up 2-4 bags to head to his house every weekend. He'll be meeting my mom and her partner Sunday. He said he was flattered I asked. I think they will like him.

AND, CP will be joining me here on Monday for the day, since I have a forced vacation day. He's the one night stand guy I've mentioned previously. We'll see how that day goes. He is like a big kid. 39 going on 22. I am apparently the oldest person he's dated. He's the youngest person I've dated and it's obvious. He calls me things like dork and goof. Things D thinks are disrespectful and would never dream of saying to me. A good juxtaposition. Not sure how I'll lay that one out to D.

But (I know, don't call you a but), here's my HNT from the mountain. D took it while I was admiring the beautiful fire. Be sure to check out Os to see who else is playing.

Weird spot

I am in a weird mood today. D mentioned via email this morning that he'd had a girl over to the house last night. This was only after I had txt'd him last night to ask if I could call him. Didn't hear back from him for awhile, then his response was "Out for a bit." To which I replied, "Going to bed, night." I was pretty sure he was on a date, even though that wasn't the "protocol" we discussed which would have been "I am busy." Semantics I know, but, out for a bit could have been with buddies, his son etc.

This morning I get an email letting me know that he had someone over, she's interested in getting into a more serious relationship with him, but he's losing interest because he just thinks about me when he's with other people. And "did I do that?"

Well, yeah.

So now I am in this mental funk visualizing him having someone at his house. Where I sit. Where I eat. Where I am.

Not likin' those thoughts very much.

And now I get where he was coming from when we discussed me and my dates in the past. I really thought that I wasn't the jealous type. Does it mean I care more than I thought because it bothers me? That's his take on it when I shared how I felt. I dunno. It may just be part of my expansion and growing through the dating process.

I will say, I cut it off tonight with 3 guys I had gone out on dates with. I did it over text too, is that TOTALY gutless or what? Something along the lines of "I feel like I am not being completely upfront with you. After mentally reviewing our evening, I didn't feel a connection on my part with you. So I wouldn't mind staying in touch with you as friends, but I think that would be the extent of it. No hard feelings?"
They were all very gracious and replied with, no hard feelings, best of luck etc. I just felt like I was leading them all on with the hopes that, oh, they may invite me to their house in San Carlos, etc. Lame. Materialistic. User. I didn't like thinking of myself that way. So, I cut it off. Feel better about myself now. Which is great. And a start. Now I just need to work on those other things I am having an issue with myself over:
Running
Parenting
Time Management
Staying on task at work

That's a good list to start with. I am pretty happy beyond that to be honest. But we all have those little areas we feel like we could improve ourselves. I need to start using "can do" statements. I CAN do that. I can find/make the time to run more to help me keep my weight at a level I want, I can be a better mom, I can be a better, more productive employee etc. Also using these with my kids. Already noticing a difference. Seems to be a good start.

For HNT I'll do one of my "thoughtful" poses. Be sure to check out Os to see who else is playing.