Jilling off - fantasy #2

Bel Canto Shimmering Warm and Bright One of my MOST favorite groups. They paint beautiful images with their music. Unicorn is the perfect example.

"Dont be ashamed of what u do if it makes you happy."
Alexa being profound again and delivering a sex positive message via twitter.
I created a new twitter account so that I won't have any problems what with all the people being Dooced on a regular basis. "DafsNightmoves" if you care. Not much of a tweeter, but hopefully things will pick up soon.

I spent some alone time today contemplating "things." I have become more aware of how much I rely on sex to make me feel better and improve my mood, especially when I am pms-ing. I LOVE having sex and I used to look forward to the accessibility of a cock, when I wanted one. I very rarely got turned down. But I have not had any cock available since before March and I am feeling a little empty. My toys just don't fill my wet cunt the same way. I have to imagine what might be happening if you were there, filling me up instead.

I woke up this morning after a dream so real in which I was on the verge of orgasm. I was dripping wet. Roomie had stayed over at her new SO's so I had the place to myself. I lounged on the bed, enjoying my alone time and ventured idly down to my wetness. Mmmmmmm. I love when I am ready to go, no work required. It was windy as all hell here today and the drapes were flying in the breeze as I spread my legs so I could reach my private space.

I dipped two fingers all the way in to coat them with my girl gloss. (All the better to fuck you with my dear.)  My fingers wander up to my clit, sending a little shiver through me. I look down through my tight breasts and hold my pussy lips open with one had, clit firmly grasped between 2 fingers of other hand. Rolling, rolling, flicking. Dip in, more gloss. It looks so hot from this view, I wonder how it would look to you? I need someone to take photos and show me. I am thinking of this and it makes me even more wet.

Dip in, more gloss. My fingers continue the rubbing and rolling on my clit. I have a typical pattern, most people do I think. I use the left side, it's not as eruptive as the right side. If I am feeling like I really need to let loose the right side is the way I go. No mess today, so my fingers linger to the left of my clit, rubbing, stroking.

I am imagining you in between my legs, I can see your eyes over my clit, mouth firmly attached, fingers probing my folds. I start to rock back and forth, imagining a cock filling me, fucking me. I am rolling my hips against your mouth, moving faster and faster as you get closer and closer. I think about WND and our phone calls, how we had phone sex one Sunday afternoon. He left a friend's house to come home and jack off with me. "What are you wearing?" I ask him. Shorts, he says. We whisper thoughts to each other, what we would do, what we want done. He finishes first and enourages me to my end. I whisper, "I am so wet, I am going to get everything all wet!" He laughs, (so SEXY) "That's the idea." I LOVE that he laughed, was comfortable enough to do it. It makes me even more wet just thinking about it.

My breath catches, my stomach starts to clench and my thighs start to twitch and I imagine I am clenching your head to my wetness. Dip in, more gloss. Fingers furiously rubbing now, ass rocking against the bed, legs spread wide and I'm coming! I arch my back and moan raggedly as the stars take over my vision.

I lick the gloss off my fingers, wishing it was you.

Your Love, your love

I have to admit I like this song. She's a HORRIBLE singer, but the tune manages to plant itself in my brain and won't get out, (wait, that's a place a cat can go) won't leave. It's ridiculous.

So roomie went out with a guy tonight so I ran by myself. 6 miles to the closest casino, then worked out. How else am I going to get to one of the bodies below? This is a collection of photos that inspire me that I made my desktop.

Yum and a bunch more of yum. Good inspiration for the up coming trip we're planning to San Carlos over Memorial Day weekend. Whohoo!!

I filed for the default today. Now I can call tomorrow and actually get my court date. Lookin' at June 8th to be divorced. How's that work for ya'll? Everyone free? I was reading the Ethical Slut V2 at lunch today and while I was waiting for my turn. I've changed my quote under Night Moves to more accurately reflect the mood.

So I LOVE reading Dooce and you should check out her post from today. Hi Lair E Us. I love her humor. She made working out funny. I aspire to that. She's my lunch time guilty pleasure along with MLIA. Some of them are totally made up, but you can skip past to the ones that make you laugh.

I was supposed to meet a coworker for coffee today (casual, no biggie) and I totally got the skeeves about it so I bailed. It was ODD. He's married, he knows I am married (and getting divorced), he's made comments about how attractive he thinks I am but the feeling is not reciprocal nor have I ever indicated it was. In fact he reminds me SO much of C, but times 10. And I have told him that, and he keeps coming back for more. So I need to keep it to IMing and I will likely have to tame that down. I have to admit I like the attention though. Bad me.

Also, I finally was able to apologize to B for a comment I made over a year ago. We haven't spoken since then, at his request. I tried reconnecting with him recently, no response. He actually needed something from me today that was work related so he ASKED SOMEONE ELSE TO ASK ME FOR IT. It was ridiculous. So I sent him a note saying that I wished he had just asked me himself and that I thought it was sad our former friendship had dissolved to this. I said I wish you the best in your future. Then I felt like I hadn't said enough, so I sent one more email saying, "I sincerely apologize for anything I might have said that offended you, that was never the intent." What else are you supposed to do when you tell a guy you're not interested in him sexually but you enjoy his friendship? Sheesh, I lost a good friend over that (or apparently not). As J said, "B is an idiot." But, I apologized today, and now I am going to move away with a clear conscious.

So, I am back onto Lost. I checked into ABC last night and realized that ALL the episodes are posted, YAY so I was able to go back as far as I had missed. So, I am going to check out one more tonight before I call it quits. Enjoy Ke$ha. I am on listen #10 or so at this point. Lol (rolling eyes).